Strange News Late at Night

Dr. Zhang handed over a few tranquilizers, which I swallowed with tears. "Do you remember everything?" I nodded heavily. "It turns out that your biological father has been sexually assaulting you... Then it is very likely that your disease is not persecution delusion, but PTSD." "That is post-traumatic stress, coupled with the severe mental stimulation of witnessing his brother being killed, depression and amnesia are all caused by this." "It's my adoptive father." I corrected him indifferently. Dr. Zhang was stunned. "No matter what, it's all worth it. My father is the real murderer. Can this video be handed over to the police as evidence to correct him?" I asked. "I'm afraid it won't work. What the police need is real evidence. The psychological evidence can only be used as an auxiliary, but cannot directly convict." Dr. Zhang shrugged. My eyes dimmed. "Go away and fly away. Don't come back there again. Cut off all contact with your adoptive parents. It's hell there. You're still so young and there are still so many possibilities in life... It's not your fault that you were violated or tainted. You are still pure." Dr. Zhang pressed my shoulder hard. "Dr. Zhang, you are the only person in the world who knows the truth. No matter what, don't give up on me. Thank you!" "Believe me." He looked at me firmly, with a powerful look in his eyes. Saying goodbye to Dr. Zhang, I did not leave my adoptive parents' home as promised to him. I returned to that hell on earth as if nothing had happened. I took medicine and rested on time according to their requirements. I even suddenly giggled, talked nonsense, deliberately self-harmed, and even cut myself with a razor blade. It was just to make them believe that my mental crisis was hopeless and that I was extremely ill and could end my life at any time under the influence of hallucinogens. No matter how crazy my behavior is, I know clearly that for my dead brother and for those nightmares that linger throughout my life, all my sins will eventually be paid with blood! At midnight when a certain foster father was exhausted and reaching climax, I was underneath him, piercing his back with a dagger hidden under the pillow, and inserting the knife accurately into his heart. He didn't even have time to cry out before he died. I slowly pulled out the handle of the knife, stabbing him once, twice, until his body was a bloody mess with no trace of life left. I swallowed the blue pills I had prepared in advance, rushed naked onto the street at midnight, and rushed into a 24-hour convenience store. Standing covered in blood in front of the stunned store clerk, he sang at the top of his lungs. Almost two minutes passed before the frightened clerk remembered to call the police. The police took off their police uniform, put it on me, and forcibly injected me with two sedatives. "Xiaozhou, sister is here to find you..." I murmured before losing consciousness. ...

A month later, the court held a public hearing and the adoptive mother was sentenced to ten years in prison for intentional injury and indirect death. Since I have a long history of mental illness and was coerced by my adoptive mother to take an overdose of hallucinogens, according to the provisions of the Criminal Law, a mentally ill person's personal behavior is uncontrollable during the onset of illness. He is a non-criminally responsible person and enjoys immunity from liability. He is acquitted in court. But you need to undergo a certain period of mental treatment. The day I walked out of the court was a bright morning, and for the first time I stood completely in the light. Dr. Zhang followed me. He never asked me whether I was really unconscious the night I killed my adoptive father. And I tacitly agreed not to give any explanation, and the deliberate murder became a secret we guarded together. We hugged each other tightly and encouraged each other, like comrades who survived a hail of bullets. In this battle, if it weren't for him, I would have had no choice but to sink the boat and end up in a dead end. It was his help that allowed me to escape unscathed. I can only repay this kindness in my own way. ... A year later, I left the mental hospital and entered the psychological counselor major at B Normal University, which is the top university in the country for psychology. After graduating with a master's degree, I became Dr. Zhang's colleague as I wished. CASE has been in the business for many years and has handled hundreds of cases of psychological reconstruction after sexual assault. It provides paid or free psychological assistance to many boys and girls who have experienced the same experience. Maybe it is a very long corridor, but as long as you live, you will always be able to escape, have vitality, and then usher in the light. In leading them on their journey out of darkness, I also unknowingly healed myself. Nietzsche said: "Fight with the dragon for too long, and you will become the dragon yourself; stare into the abyss for too long, and the abyss will stare back." I am the dragon slayer who has been confronting evil dragons for too long. Whenever I face the sun, I still show an imperceptible smile. Because, there is one thing that Dr. Zhang may not know about. That day, after I was hypnotized, I did see the truth of the matter.

Hearing his footsteps walking away, I jumped up from the bed, picked up a piece of paper towel, wiped my lower body clean, and then carefully put the piece of paper towel into the bedside drawer. At one o'clock in the afternoon, I appeared in Dr. Zhang's consulting room on time and lay down calmly in an armchair. Directly opposite the armchair, there is a small video camera. "Are you ready for any consequences, good or bad?" "Let's get started!" "You imagine a clear blue sky, and under the sky is a piece of grass as thick as velvet. You lie on the grass and count the marshmallow-like clouds in the sky happily... Now, you are very relaxed and sleepy..." The following content is what I saw in the video. ... "What do you see in the room now? "I saw daddy, daddy... He was raping me, he took me... I cried in my sleep. " "Then what? What else? " "Brother, my father raped me, and my brother found out. He rushed into my room with a knife. He rushed to my father and said he was going to kill him! " "Then what? "Dr. Zhang continued to guide me. "Dad, he grabbed his brother's hand, but the brother was very angry and cut it desperately, almost stabbing dad! " "Yeah, I understand, what happened next? " "Later, my father was frightened. He was stronger than his brother, so he snatched the knife away. The younger brother leaned over, and my father accidentally stabbed the knife into his body! No..." My face twisted in pain. "So, it was actually my father who killed his brother? " I nodded painfully. "Cry if you want, no one here will hurt you. "Dr. Zhang turned on the music player on the table, and the calming alpha wave music flowed out soothingly. After a while of sobbing, I said intermittently: "Dad was stunned. He dropped the dagger and shook his brother desperately, but the knife hit the vital point. The brother was no longer breathing. Dad burst into tears with regret. " "He seemed to have remembered something and suddenly looked towards me. I was too frightened and kept shouting hysterically. I couldn't control myself at all. " "He picked up the knife from the ground, wiped the handle clean with a tissue, and then put the knife into my hand. " "And you? What was your reaction? " "My mind went blank. I couldn't remember anything except pain and fear. Oh, my head hurts so much! It really hurts..." I held my head in my hands, my cheeks pale and contorted with pain. The video ended like this, and I woke up with nightmare-like memories.